Friday, October 31, 2008
Reflection on a fine day
Today kinda a reflective day for me..seems as if the world is gonna end soon...didnt go school today..went for my N.S check up today..and wondering is my life gonna be in deep shit coz NS is my greatest enemy now..im preparing for the worst considering i got
Pes A..Damn was hoping i got some unknown cardiac illness to be classified as Pes E(crazy me)..well lets not be negative alrite???
While walking and suddenly remembered that 2day is Friday...and decided to go
solat Jumaat alone..since its been a long time i performed the solat jumaat....so went to Masjid Muhajidin at Queenstown...i took the opportunity to Doa...i wont tell u what is it but yeah hopefully my prayers will be answer..
I decided to go Vivo
ALONE since Hazwan was telling me that he went there yesterday..i got the urge to shop but...never mind..save the money for some important things....
Im getting all stress up..lots of project will be due next week or so..I havent really touch on Psychiatric and BH2...Well what to do???Lecturers have been bombing us projects after another..wanting us to prepare for the working world...wait till they make us fall for depression..(hope not)..
Well cant wait for this
Sun Big Walk..going with my Badots society gang...and yup plus the 7 november
healthy lifestyle outing with the classmates..till then i update again alrite..take care readers..
it was meant to be at.... [6:10 PM]
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Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Finally
AHHH.....fINALLy....Updating my blog..haha..updating have been a chore..so maybe this free time(as iF...)..Will got me o my feet and think of what to post..anyway life have been flying past like nobody business and there goes my Anxiety plus-plus....Raye 08 is about to end in a few days time and how nice im able to spend the raye with my love one including My o4 AND my Nursing Cliques.....U guys really make my life in ITE a wonderful one..come to think of it we are only left with 4 weeks of in-campus...so we better cherish the friendship that we built a year ago..
ok see i got to go...ill update again alright...Got to study for my Psychistric before i get cranky...see u
it was meant to be at.... [7:56 PM]
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Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Pain PLEASE GO AWAY
School have just started and i seriously hate school..lesons have been such a bore and the only lesson im able to asorbed is Mrs Tang lessons...and Psychiatric is driving me nuts considering Mdm Mages is the Lecturer...gosh..and i hate the fact that she cant even pronounce my name correctly..
My immune systems is low and i tend to get sick easily...and its been a week since this mysterious illness have been bugging me..i get chest pain easily...and its the pain of anxiety or what malay says "sebak dada"..."YA ALLAH TERANGLAH DADA KU YA ALLAH"...And its been hindering my sleep and im having insomia draging myself of bed every morning and having to on the bus on the hour journey to school...Thoughts been through my mind..."Panjangkanlah umurku YA ALLAH"....I HAVE BEEN THINKING TOO MUCH ABOUT LIFE AND AFTER LIFE...mom says i'hv been thinking too much...which i think i have.....to those reading this do pray for me...
And yup..i am always thinking of U..
it was meant to be at.... [8:06 PM]
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Sunday, October 5, 2008
wHAT IF....??
My fellows BardotZ society..Me,Ham,Sya,Rip
Haha...my blog begining to rot..hahaha..its just that my life have been quite a dull and nothing to be excited about...except for the mess im creating..and i done want to bored u with my adi-adi-ya..stupid story on where i go or what i bought..........
The Holy Month of Ramadan have just ended..and im sure its been a good month for us muslims right??so its the month of Shawal....yess..but i kind of like not looking foward like what i did in my previous years coz im 20 this year and getting "collection"is a past now and its up to families to give me...haix...and the worse thing is that my aunt said which department i was working in...???i was like..huh???im still a student nurse...what the hell..and and what car i am driving..im like for goodness sake..OMG..
Anyway my same old insomia came again and its so frustrating...and my anxiety level is so high now..and i kept having nightmares which seems to become a norm now...i just pray to god that none of my nightmares will all come true...maybe i reflect too much..about who i am????what the future holds for me in years to come..or if theres really the right one is out there...or am i destined to be enjoy love from afar and yet envy the love of others..if only....
IF I ever told u,would our friendship comes to an end
would u be EVEN classified as my FRIEND
Shuld i tell u???
or face the WORSE CONSEQUENCES
If only you'd look through my smile
And saw that my love for you was in deniaL
Some knew whats running through my head
But one question, "do you?"
You can make me smile with just one hi
And make me feel sad with that same goodbye
My stomach gets those silly butterflies
When ever i look deep into your eyes
For when we go our separate ways,
These are of course my sadder days,
For not being your friend is the worst thought of all,
It makes my heart just sink and fall
Well that's all that the heart has got to say
But one thing for sure
That you will at least be my friend
Course a friend stays forever
it was meant to be at.... [3:23 PM]
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