Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Boring last afternoon

My mind is kinda in a mess right now..i told myself never ever bring work at home but in fact it actually did....like seriously i kinda hate my job scope....in short serving this stupid shit that every Singaporean guys have to do....However a friend said to me...Fuck-care..its not even my rice bowl and you never choose to come here in d first place....i'l try to believe in that..

I felt my usual low self esteem today...(wait...it should be like most of the time)....i felt overshadow by a friend who is definately stronger then me.....in handling crisis....i panic...i dont dare to explore.......nor do i have the ability to think fast...and today i made a senior to loss its record of..."traced"..if you guys know what that means...but then again....why super on????my bad....im responsible for that....and i hate when people gave me the look of like..."you again"....actually what do you expect..different people have different ways of learning or adapting..im just a junior after all.....which makes me think that i cant wait for the next intake to ORD...dont get me wrong....any intake is the next to go means im one step closer to ORD.....in which im already serve 6 months of NS...do i wanna countdown to ORD????not yet for sure....its still a long way to go..or il be slowing now on this fucking journey...or i should say battle....!!!!!!

it was meant to be at.... [1:03 AM]

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